He's Listening

He's listening when I'm in the car, at the gym, at the grocery store, sitting home alone and just about any other place, time, or period of my life. He's listening even when I don't want Him to hear my selfish cries.

Over the last month, I've seen Him show up more and more in my life. It could be that I'm more aware of it or maybe it's that I'm looking to Him for more. Depending on Him for support during times of confusion and "what ifs". I've spent a great deal of time over the last few weeks reading and praying. Talking to God and just laying it all out there. What I want to work on, what I think I need and just inviting Him in to my life. I am NOT perfect and there are many raw areas in need of some healing. It's been good, but not easy. It's taken hard realizations to see this is the direction I need to move in, to continue running full force toward the finish line. I'm in no way complete, fixed, or a finish product, but back on track to one day get to that point.

It's not just a "one-way, He's listening" street though. I've had to do the same. After all that's good communication, right? I've had to open my heart to what He wants for me, and realize that I can't do it all alone. I need Him and to follow His guidance.

Lots of things have been happening and my personality, gifts and nature have a hard time dealing with it all at a distance. My godson has been dealing with some health issues, a good friend of mine had a major heart scare, dad's doctor say, "just wait til your knee locks up and then we can do something about the pain" and the blessing of a healthy baby boy to our family. It's hard to manage all the emotions, hundreds and thousands of miles away. Not to mention all the "NEW" stuff in the last 3 months. But I haven't given up on Him and He hasn't on me. We're getting through it all side-by-side, one step at a time.